It is a shame that the most cathartic times are also the busiest. There are a lot of thoughts and feelings that you run through when moving like we are right now. The nostalgia for the place you are living; the separation from friends, knowing that there is very little chance that you will have closeness of that degree with those people ever again; the fondness for the memories that you have made; the appreciation for the things you have learned and seen.
Within a matter of minutes your perspective changes, not much longer than looking away from
your rearview mirror to the road ahead. Different thoughts prevail. The stresses of the move; the stresses of the budget; concerns for safety; the need for basics, such as where to find groceries, the papers for the customs, or even how to get to where we will spend the night. It is a rapid and rough change that doesn’t leave enough time to revel in the beauty of what has been created over the past few months. Perhaps that is something that should already have been done-- an easy perspective to take consciously, but the reality is that the physical separation is a much more effective stimulus for these feelings.
Point being that I am taking this time now to document what cannot be documented when you are pushing three trolleys of luggage around a couple of airports, when you are looking at your kids, comparing them to how they were six months ago and imagining what another twelve will do for them.
If these are feelings I feel alone, I am not the only one going through his mental scrapbook. As I write, Ana and Ryan lie in bed looking through video clips from Louisville on Ana's phone. The only reason they are not clips of Christchurch is because she had to use a different phone there. I am sure that the impetus to start looking at those videos was the same as mine.
I miss New Zealand a great deal, and while I try to keep an open mind. Realistically I don’t think
that Australia will measure up. When I look back a couple of years from now, I think that my love for New Zealand will have faded very little. I don’t see any reason why I couldn’t come across the same caliber of people here as there, or Louisville for that matter. In both places I made friendships that I hope I keep up for life. And there are surely going to be amazing sites here (Australia). But the intangibles, the very things that I have come here to absorb, are so great there. The rhythm of the people, the generosity, the knowledge of other peoples and humility about their own; I am sure that these will be very different here, not just because we have changed countries, but the entire scene is different. Small city to big, small economy to strong, a more intramural lifestyle. I’ll take it all for what it is and love it. I just know which one fits me better.
An interesting point is starting to twinkle on the horizon. Many of the differences between the
Kiwis and the Ausies also exist between the Americans and both of them. It’s just another big step to realizing what my homeland is, appreciating others for what they have and at the same time recognizing what we lack and what negative things we unfortunately do not lack. But you cannot change things unless you know what changes to make. And some are not to be changed, just accepted. Yes, we have a lot of good things, and I wouldn’t even suggest absolutes, but in my current state of mind, missing what we have lost, I am just taking a long look around, seeing the familiar and wondering what to make of the unfamiliar.
Within a matter of minutes your perspective changes, not much longer than looking away from
Point being that I am taking this time now to document what cannot be documented when you are pushing three trolleys of luggage around a couple of airports, when you are looking at your kids, comparing them to how they were six months ago and imagining what another twelve will do for them.
If these are feelings I feel alone, I am not the only one going through his mental scrapbook. As I write, Ana and Ryan lie in bed looking through video clips from Louisville on Ana's phone. The only reason they are not clips of Christchurch is because she had to use a different phone there. I am sure that the impetus to start looking at those videos was the same as mine.
I miss New Zealand a great deal, and while I try to keep an open mind. Realistically I don’t think
An interesting point is starting to twinkle on the horizon. Many of the differences between the

